Tuesday, July 26, 2016

In Their Own Time

Do you think it's possible to want something too much? 

Like if you think about it just a little too hard, or hope for it more then you should that it might not happen? 

That's the way I've been feeling with something in my life lately, something I only recently decided that I wanted. Unfortunately the very impatient side of me is taking over and the second I decided that I wanted this thing, I wanted it right now. 

Now I've always been one to work for the things that I want. I don't necessarily rely on the sheer hope that something might happen by chance. Although when you want something bad enough obviously you're going to think about it, and wish for it, and overwhelm yourself with the possibility of it happening, or not...or is that just me? 

I've been trying to come to terms with the fact that I'm not in control of everything that happens in my life, as much as I may want to be. And that's hard for me. 

It's hard for my list making, organizing, planning self. I would love if it were as easy as tying my life into a perfect little bow and unwrapping each stage as I was ready for it, on my own terms. 

I'm trying to focus on the fact that I don't want to miss out on the here and now because I'm busy daydreaming about the future and what that holds. 

In my life right now I'm happy with my little two person family, I'm happy at my job, and I'm perfectly content with the stage that I'm in. I want to focus on not missing a single moment of where I'm at now so I don't look back on it later and try to remember why it went by in such a blur. 

At the same time, I'm excited for what the future holds. 

I'm learning to let things happen in their own time, and although it's something I struggle with on some days, I know that however the timing works out it will be for the best reasons. 

So no, I guess to answer my own question from above I don't think it's possible to want something too much. As long as you don't sacrifice the beauty of the day to day for the things that you're looking for around the corner. Focus on the present and sooner than you think the things that you're wishing for in your future might just become your now.
SaveSave

3 comments:

  1. This so resonated with where I am right now! Thank you for this. <3

    ReplyDelete
  2. It really is hard to let go of that control sometimes, I struggle with that on a daily basis.

    ReplyDelete
  3. I love this. I struggle with this too.

    ReplyDelete

Latest Instagrams